is Jesse James Fearing, I am 31 years old, and have served on the Board
of Blue Star Inc. for the past 10 1/2 years and have been a Minister of
the Blue Star Church since 2003.
Blue Star Inc. is a Non-Profit Church Organization in
West Point Texas. The Church has around 40 acres of land called Thunder
Ranch, devoted to their Spiritual University for helping others achieve the
best of themselves. The Church, the corporation, and the ranch are the
dream and vision of Mary Elizabeth Thunder, a Native American Teacher and
Sun dancer devoted to healing and spiritual awakening.
At Thunder Ranch we work personally with individuals
or groups in guiding them through ceremonies and workshops to aid them in
their personal growth and relationship with themselves and the world.
People can come to Thunder Ranch for a short time, as we offer ceremonies
every weekend and at different times throughout the year, or if they wish to
commit to volunteer their services to the church they can stay on and live
at Thunder Ranch for room and board for a predetermined time frame that can
be worked out. I discovered something special there when I first arrived at
Thunder Ranch in 1996 and chose to stay on and become a volunteer. Also,
being a Spiritual University, Thunder Ranch would host many elders
throughout the year that would come to teach and conduct ceremonies.
Sometimes just one or two elders at a time or other times large gatherings
of 100 or more elders.
During my first couple of years there, I worked in
the Land Management area taking care of the facilities, buildings,
landscaping and the various animals that have resided there such as buffalo,
horses and cows. I also assisted in all of the ceremonies that were
conducted. We held a Sweat Lodge every Saturday and a Vision Quest 3 times
in the spring and twice in the fall. There were also many other ceremonies
conducted throughout the year, such as dances, and pipe ceremonies.
I then became Thunderís Warrior in 1997, a warrior is
kind of like a personal assistant in a way, also a bit like a spiritual body
guard. Thunder does a lot of traveling around the country and even around
the world. Being her warrior meant traveling with her and helping to bring
ceremonies to the people. It was a learning of the spiritual flow of the
ceremonies, of life, of people, of the Universe and of my self. It was a
learning of how to get out of my self and let spirit through, to be in
service to my elders and to the people. Being a warrior included learning
how to set up a ceremony, learning the ancient songs passed down for over
2000 years, and how to assist the medicine person or spirit interpreter in
their work. Elders say that the ultimate warrior is one who can create peace
out of chaos.
I worked one on one with various elders and people
while setting up ceremonies and lectures across the country and also around
the world. We would go on the road for months at a time to lecture, give
workshops, and perform ceremonies. I would manage the road trip, scheduling
the different events in the different areas and assist Thunder during the
events. Setting up the road route, taking care of the luggage, and any
personal matters we needed to deal with on the road. We were always meeting
new people and coming into their lives to help them with whatever they
needed, so the road was a practice in flowing with whatever was needed in
that moment to be of service. Yearly, we fly overseas where we conduct a
Vision Quest, Womenís Dance, and Sweat lodges in France, Switzerland,
Holland, Germany and Italy. I have also traveled and assisted with
ceremonies in Egypt, Ireland, England, & Turkey.
In 1999 I made a commitment to God and myself
to Sundance. Thunder told me that Spirit said it was good make that
commitment. So I began that journey of becoming a Sun dancer. It is a
commitment to pray for the people, to help the people and to be in service
to all of humanity as a warrior for the light. We dance for four days no
food or water out in the sun and give of our flesh to make that prayer so
that the people will live. I have danced now for 7 years, and was blessed
by Thunder and Spirit to be able to conduct Sweat Lodges and directly assist
people during their Vision Quests 5 or 6 years ago.
This is not a religion; it is a way of life, a
way of being and thinking. As a Sun dancer I am committed to helping the
people pray and to be in service. It is this prayer and vision that guide me
in my hope to be able to help others find their own connection to God and
the Universe through these ceremonies.